My best is never good enough. For a very long long time, I've always been that person that everyone likes, but there 'there just isn't enough room' for. I always try to keep a straight face and say 'I understand,' and 'it's fine,' but it hurts so bad. I don't want to act like it's fine anymore!
I want people to understand that I don't want to settle for second best! If there's a boy I like, I don't want my friends to say, 'Oh, it's just Claire. She won't mind.' I am sick of that. I don't want to be walked all over anymore, I want to be treated like I mean something to people.
I like to help people, I really do, and I am always there to help and support them, but why aren't they there for me when I need them? I'm always the one doing the supportING and never being supportED.
Second best sucks. My feelings do matter. All my failures do take there toll. I just want to give up and never try again. I sometimes feel like doing the things I love aren't worth it. I feel like I'M not worth it. I feel ugly and sad and unhappy and worthless.
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