Today, as I was sitting in my room, not working on homework, I thought about my blog. I felt bad for my blog, seeing as how it never gets any attention, and everyone knows that love and consideration are needed to create a healthy relationship. Well, me and my blog have a love hate relationahip. I have maybe one good post on here... the rest are kind of... bad. I only write when I have something good to write about. Speaking of wrting, the writing test is tuesday, and I am superdupernervous because I have yet to write a decent cause and effect or extended definition paper. Yeah. No good. I really need to do well, but no pressure. Pressure. The audtions for the a cappella group at my school are tomorrow. Ooooh goodness. I am nervous about that, too. You see, when I was in middle school, I was good at singing. I was one of the best. I got into Honors Chorus and all of the All County things. Near the end of eighth grade, I was confident in myself and my abilities. I was singing in a quartet at our massivly important (or so I thought at the time) middle school graduation. I was very proud of myself and of who I was. That was until a girl who I thought was a friend telling everyone behind my back about what a terrible singer I was, and how our graduation was going to suck because I was going to be singing at it. It broke me. I lost my confidence in my voice and in acting and in everything that had been important to me before. And at auditions from then on, I was afraid to try my best, terrified that I would be let down and disappointed again. I didn't want to be a failure. And, all of my failed auditions from that point on only seemed to re-enforce what that girl had said about me. I hope that my confidence will be as high as it was then someday. I hope that I can stop being afraid of being myself tomorrow, and do a really great job. As much as I may try to deny it, this audition actually means a lot to me. I have been wanting to be in the group since I first saw them preform, I thought that I was destined to be in that group. I want to prove that I can be better than my competition and that I am the best person for the group. I don't want to end up afraid and misreble again. Sorry for the rant.
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